The Truth Hurts: Real Secrets of a 30 year old
62I'm too lazy to make 40 postcards
I ADORE my husband (WAY more than I should).
I do not have a college degree.
I am a Christian.
Some facts are better left as secrets.
I LOVE to play pool.
Seth David Fisher broke my heart in the 7th grade.
When my parents were out of town one weekend, I allowed some friends to borrow their motor home.
I was abandoned by my father at like 6 months old, and then rejected by him in my 20s.
I am a divorcee.
The constellations Orion and the Big Dipper remind me of significant events in my life.
I suffered from a miscarriage in January 2007.
I am hoping Brytin’s year in kindergarten will help me decide if I want to be a kindergarten teacher.
I think that I have a “chemical imbalance.”
I used to earn almost $25/hour.
My uncle lied to me one too many times.
I drink a LOT of coffee and barely any water.
I once ratted out a friend to save my own ass.
I do not WANT to quit smoking.
I slept with a married man (before I was married).
I am not at all confident.
I am a stay-at-home stepmother.
I feel as though I let a lot of people down in my short life.
My grandmother lives a few hours away from me, but I haven’t seen her in three years.
I miss Kristen Sue Stich.
I’ve been married in Vegas - twice.
I have more debts than four families should have.
I have never lived up to my potential.
I have a rage deep inside that no one has ever seen.
I am scared to death of inheriting rheumatoid arthritis.
I ride a motorcycle.
I hate only one person on this earth.
I used to snort a lot of crystal meth.
I swear too much.
I live in a manufactured home.
I had an abortion the summer before my sophomore year.
I long to be the wisest person you know.
I am really good friends with my husband’s ex-wife.
No one close to me has died (knock on wood).
I love to cook and knit and garden and read.
I wish I could do eighth grade all over again.
- PostSecret
PostSecret is an ongoing community art project where people mail in their secrets anonymously on one side of a postcard.
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I am hoping that writing will clear away a lot of the darkness in my mind. So far, it has! This hub was easy for me to write, difficult for me to publish. What if no one read it? What if no one understood it? What if everyone had a negative opinion? But, I figured that if I really want to write an autobiography, I need to be able to write the truth (whether it is ugly or beautiful).
Thank you for reading my hubs, Dohn. I appreciate your time.
If only we could all be so honest about ourselves. I thought I had guts...you dserve my medals more then me. You have inspired me today I have some writing to do. Thanks for your Hub
Thanks, Scott. That's every writer's dream, I think, to inspire :)
I agree with dohn 121 'This was sad, funny, shocking, revealing, and interesting through out.'
I loved the way you have communicated so much in such a powerful way, I look forward to reading more of your hubs
Thanks, By Grace 7. I appreciate your comment, "I loved the way you have communicated so much in such a powerful way..." That is actually a really great thing for me to remember - so much can be communicated in a unique way, with less words. Thank you for the reminder.
this hub is refreshingly different and simply kicks ass
you're a brave one
If you were a man I would say that you must have huge balls to write this. The courage that it must have taken to write all of this in such a powerful manner is amazing. The courage that is required to be capable of looking at oneself in such an honest and open manner defies description. You are an inpiration to me, & I suspect many others also. I would kill to have a coffee & a chat with a person such as you because I feel I would learn so very very much about people & life. I salute you.
elisabethkcmo:
Thank you for visiting my hub and leaving a comment. I appreciate your compliments. Have you ever visited the postsecret blog? It can be pretty shocking.
Thanks again for visiting.
Leslie
Paul,
I am glad you can recognize the courage it takes to be open and honest about who we really are. Not to say that this hub is EVERYTHING that I am, but it definitely contains major events that shaped who I am today.
Thank you so much for your compliments. It is so encouraging to know that my writing about what I know has inspired others.
Thank you for visiting my hub. I look forward to readiing your work.
Leslie
I've heard about that postcard site and thought it was a unique and good idea but I never participated in it. It went on a list of "to-do" things that I never got around to. The way you did it is probably much better anyway. :)
Facing truth and doing it so publicly serves a great purpose. It frees you! and by being public you can't change your mind and run away from it. Bravo to you for doing this.
I think number four on your list is what levels the playing field. What I mean by that is -- Every single person has a list and just because yours is here out in public for the world to scrutinize doesn't make you any higher or lower on the scale of rights and wrongs. -- Being a Christian takes all the "scores" away and evens it all up. I hope that made sense and you took it as a compliment to your honesty and sincerity because that is exactly what I aim to do--compliment you for a great hub. :)
Thank you so much, Vanderhaven. I appreciate your time to read my hub and effort in the well-thoughout comment you left.
I agree that being a Christian "levels the playing field." My understanding is that a sin is a sin is a sin in God's eyes; whether I steal Post-Its, have an abortion, fornicate, or simply disobey God's calling - all sins separate me from my Maker and thus require confession and the righteousness of Christ.
The exercise in writing 40 truths was very freeing to me. Not only did I get to face the bad, but also own it, and its place in making me who I am today.
Thank you for the compliment, Vanderhaven. I appreciate you visiting my hub.
Blessings.
This hub reminds me of an e-mail a friend of mine sent me once where all the recipients were to list 20 random facts about themselves and then forward it along to others who would list 20 random facts about themselves and so on and so on. Although I could see the fun in it, it still made me uneasy to think that if I participated in this, people I didn’t even know would be reading all these things about me.
I must say I agree with the assessment of other hubbers here who have commented on your courage. I can’t say that I could be comfortable laundry listing such deeply personal information in such a public forum. However, that being said, I do write poetry about my personal experiences so, it probably amouts to the same thing, just a different format.
I applaud your courage and your honesty. And you have a little bit "different" perspective on some things which I like. I read one of your other hubs about your experience with molestation and I have to say, it really made me scratch my head.
Thank you for your comment, Disturbia. I appreciate receiving feedback from others. I have always been willing to be open about the reality that is me, but never as open as this was. It was a stretch for me to post it, and I am glad that others are at least being entertained by it.
I agree with you, my perspective on my experiences is definitely askew from the typical. Some are a defense mechanism, and some are based on youthful interpretations of horrific experiences.
When you break down the psychology of it all, it is actually quite interesting, I think. It's the explanations that propel me to share. I want to make sure that anyone else who has ever experienced anything remotely similar knows they are not crazy. (Much like Mackenzie Phillips wants consensual incestees to know they are not alone.)
Anyway, thank you for your comments, Disturbia, I greatly appreciate you taking the time to reading my hubs.
You sound like a typical person to me. we all have skeletons rattling in the coset of our souls, and secrets that we whisper to ourselves at night, sometimes savoring them and at other times abhorring what we have done. But it is all part of the journey that we take through life, there are many detours and wrecks along the way, but it is the coming back to the crossroads and moving on that makes us better for it. I would need a rather large postcard myself
morew of a poster card I am sure..LOL~~~MFB III
MFB:
Thank you for visiting my hub, and for leaving a comment. I greatly appreciate hearing/reading how my writing has impacted someone.
To hear you say that I am "typical" is a HUGE relief. It is probably the first time in my life that I ever heard that, and truthfully, it feels really really good. I know we spend most of our lives trying to be "unique," but to know that we are not "abnormal" or "weird" is a welcome relief :)
Thank you again for visiting my hub.
Blessings,
Leslie
Not sure if you've ever listened to much REM, but reading this I was reminded of the song "Shiny, Happy People" because of how ridiculous is the concept that any one of us are perfect. The imperfections are what makes us - *us* What a boring rock this would be if nobody had a story to tell...thanks for sharing some of yours.
Thank you for the comment, Jeffrey.
I was once told that Jonah's purpose in life was to air his dirty laundry so that others don't make the same mistakes...I have tried to emulate that mentality ever since...
I forgot about that song. I never realized that was what the song was about; I'll have to listen to it again.
Thanks again for stopping by!
wow, wow, and wow, this is such a well written and awesome hub to read, it once again proves that you are a great writer!
Thank you, Rebecca, for your compliments. I appreciate knowing that my writing is awesome to read :)
Thank you for taking the time to read my writing.
Blessings,
Leslie
I have such a strong admiration for people who can say the truths about their life lay things on the table and say “This is me, Take it or leave it. I know who I am.”I loved you honesty, as well the pure emotions of this piece. I look forward to reading more of your work, take care!
Thank you for your kind words, Sarah. And for bringing this piece to the forefront of my mind - I had forgotten all about it. To read it a year or so later and see the differences, well, it's definitely something I should do once every few years, I guess :)
Thank you for visiting. Hopefully you can find some encouragement through it.
Leslie
This must have been kind of a freeing hub to write! It's nice to get our dirty little secrets off our chest sometimes.
I am enjoying reading your work.
Thanks, JL, for stopping by and leaving your mark. It's always nice to know people read your writing - and especially helpful when you know what they thought of it.
Many blessings,
Leslie
dohn121 Level 3 Commenter 2 years ago
Wow, Leslie (I hope you don't mind my calling you that). This was sad, funny, shocking, revealing, and interesting through out. This is quite a confession. I bet it made you feel better to get off of your chest! Writing will have that effect on us. Great job! I hope to read more of your hubs! Thanks!